alone

i feel so alone at times.. i wonder why.. you may be beside me, but i don feel yr pressence at all.. why ??? when problems pop out in my life, all you do is just stand there.. not helping me at all.. or can i say you don even care at all.. just because it is non of yr business.. at work, many problems occured.. but you don seem to care at all!!! you are always the first person i call when i need help and comfort.. but you don seem to open the door for me when problems occured to me.. and at the end, i was always the one solving the problems ALONE.. yes alone.. though you stand the one and only place in my heart.. but you din make me feel secure and happy at all.. not at all.. all you care is abt yrself.. you don spare a thought for me.. selfish person.. i guess i will soon use to the pressence without you.. i don rely on you anymore.. i only get to realise it this few days... and these are the days when i am in the lowest and helpless mood.. i will be stronger and stronger each days..