disappointment..

second time blogging today.. surpose to be happy.. but now.. tears start flowing down my cheeks.. i think i have made the wrong choice last time.. i should have give up on you long ago.. am i too late to give up now? i don wish to regret for my whole life taking the wrong step.. all you long for is to go drink until midnight at thai disco.. don think i am stupid.. i am not surprise if you were to hook on with a thai girl.. it is expected.. what a laugh.. to think i can still treat this kind of guy so good.. i did so much for him but he did nth.. really nth.. i restrain myself from always talkin to guys as i know you don like.. its like this for 4 years.. since the days i am with you.. but what about you?? ppl got thai girl friend then you also wan follow is it.. if tats the case then be it.. i can comfirm that they don love you but yr money!!! you have nth to love.. not even money.. wonder why am i such a loser in r/s.. a really loser.. fuck it.. i hate it to the max.. i need to get out of this asap.. i don wish myself to fall apart as time goes by.. its really miserable to be with you.. i don wish to share my love with others.. i believe what the uncle said that time.. one man, two woman...

ps: a really bad dream for me..