Today, the first time i went for visiting.. the feeling is weird.. i dunno how to explain.. but need not say, i cried. the moment i saw till him, my eyes are filled with tears. i cant even control my tears. i know it will make him more worried :( but i am more worried abt him. the condition inside is bad! And he lost weight. Seeing him like that make me feel even worst. i just wish that time faster past. i really cant hang on any longer. And i am gg to start work this fri which is the day for visiting! is it a good thing or bad thing? i really dunno. :( working is good as it kills time but the moment i think of him i will cry unconditionally. What if i cry during work? damn! I must be STRONG!!!