insomia

I cant get to sleep every night since friday... i feel very confuse.. i dunno wat to do.. only for a few days i already felt so miserable.. how am i going to survie for 1.5 to 3 years?? i feel bad when i go out to shop or eat good food... i don wish to enjoy anything.. i feel unfair to him.. i know he is suffering.. but i cant do anything to help... i really miss him very much.. every night i have been crying alone.. i don wish anybody to see me crying.. kos their comfort make me cry even worst.. but i know they are worry too... how i hope he will come back asap... i really need him..

To my friends: I am really glad that i have you all to be by my side.. i really really appreciate your care and concern.. I can feel that your really care a lot for me... really feel happy :) don worry for me .. i will be fine.. it take a long time for me to accept reality... i will be fine .. thx a lot.. loves you all!!!!