Okay, its been some times since i last came here.. This will forever be the place where i will pour out all my unhapiness.. Anw, my life is currently in a mess now.. I shall nt mention why.. its just too private to say openly.. i dunno what am i gonna do within this few years esp when ** july start.. i really cant imagine what my life will be.. i know its gonna be a big blow to me on that day.. but i will be strong to face it.. just give me some period of time to adjust to the new life ahead.. everything will be back to normal after few months later.. so is your life.. i believe things will be better when 2012 come.. its still damn fucking long.. 2011 haven even arrive and i am thinking of 2012.. No one will understand how i feel right now.. i can easily cry out of no reason but you.. you just don understand how am i feeling now.. i know you will feel even worst than me.. but i believe you will be stronger once everything is over.. A new life is right ahead of you.. COMPLETELY NEW i know.. but learn to accept it.. things will be better for the two of us.. this is a test for our relationship.. Everything is fated from the begining when we are born. BB.